And as I walked back to the metro tonight to get back to my place, I couldn't help but feel like this city, and myself are so alive right now. There was just this feeling of me beating the world that just felt great. I long for days and nights like these. If only I could string together a few more thousand days like today I'll be just fine.
I got to spend the latter half of my day, after watching Pacific Rim talking to one of my best friends about what it is or what it's going to take to make a summer blockbuster, and really the overall state of movies in general. And in that moment when we were both going back and forth at each other expressing our ideas and getting under each others skin about what we think and feel is right, and couldn't help but think this is what I've been missing. I've missed these talks that I used to frequently have with Cooper and the push back that I always get from him because even though we both love movies with such a great passion our tastes seem to always be a little bit different from each other.
For the first time in a really long time I felt like it was all happening. Like this is the beginning of something truly great. I'm in the place that I need to be with the people that I need to be with. I don't know what the future may hold but in a perfect world I will get to make movies, or be directly involved in the process of making movies, and I will be able to do so with my best friend, and today felt like the beginning of that process. After all big things have small beginnings.
And even though all of this great stuff was happening today, there was still a bit of a cloud over my day today, or tonight I guess I should say. It happened two fold. The first for those of you who aren't on the planet earth there was the Trayvon Martin Verdict. Now I'm really not going to get into all of it because I know it has been such a device thing anyway. I just know that since I heard about it, it has been weighing heavily on my mind. I am so sad for that family because no matter what anybody says about not know the facts or there are only two people that really knows what happen, etc, etc, etc. What I do know is this... There is a 17 year old kid that is dead. And that kid was unarmed, and there is a man the gunned him down, and today he will walk free. And at least for me it's hard to say there is justice in this world when something like that can happen.
I don't presume to know everything that happened, but I will say this like a said it earlier today. It is just a sad commentary on a society that is obsessed with guns. I mean in Oklahoma there is a open carry law where people can just walk around with a gun on there hip like it's the goddamn wild wild west. It's stupid, and I don't care about the backlash that I'll get for saying that. It is fucking retarded. And I am in no way saying take away everybody's guns and we will be so much safer. I realize that we all have a right to bare arms, but when is enough enough? That is all that I have to say.
And also I really am getting sick and tired of people saying don't make this a race thing. It's not about race, it's not about race, racism doesn't exist anymore. It are statements like these that really make me think that people are just being naive. And for the most part the people saying these things are those that have never had to deal with it in the first place. Because the truth of the matter is that African American Men in this country live shorter lives, on average get paid less, and are more likely to end up in prison than any other sub group in this country. Those are the facts and they are hard to ignore. Should people not be mad that a 17 year old unarmed black male was gunned down in the streets by somebody that wasn't a law enforcement officer? Should people not be upset that this man was allowed to go free?
I don't know the answers to any of these questions. I just know that after such a great day I'm going to go to bed with a little bit of a heavy heart tonight and for me that kind of sucks. There was also something else that brought a cloud over my day that probably hurt a whole hell of a lot more, but that my friends is for another day entirely. I think I'm done now, so as my good friend Cory Williamson always says now. I'll see you all again, this side or the other.
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