Moments

It's sunday afternoon and it's a beautiful day outside.  I'm slightly hung over from a great night out with some great people, I'm watching Friday Night Lights, and all I can say is that my heart is full.  I've been meaning to write this post for sometimes now and you know what I thought today was as good as time as any other.  So here I go on another adventure of what I like to think is eloquent writing.  

So in me re-watching this show all the way through for like the third go around(yeah that's right third time through, I am a bit of a loser.)and I realized just what it is I love about this show.  Now besides everything, the thing that I really love about this show are the moments.  Those are the things that really matter in this show.  Every show has its melodrama and every show is trying its best to entertaining.  But not every show can move you with the moments that it puts in them.  And that is exactly what Friday Night Lights does.  

Obviously this is a television show, so of course it's not real, but I promise you if you ever have the chance to watch this show and you don't feel the things that these characters are feeling then you just don't have a heart.  Because every moment that exists in this show good or bad are so spectacular.  And every character is this show gets his or her due.  They all get their moments and then some. And boy do they all shine in them.

And that's when I started to think what is life, but just a series of moments?  And that these moments that we have in life are exactly what shape us.  We take these moments and like puzzle pieces we put them all together trying to make the picture that becomes our lives. All the moments good and bad, the first time you played catch with your dad, the first time you saw star wars, the first time your mother put a band aid on you when you scraped your knee, the first time you pitched a shut out, when you graduated high school, when you got grounded for coming home drunk, when you got cut from the college team, when you watched Closer and realized you loved writing, when you told a girl you loved her for the first time, when you got your heart broken for the first time, when you decided to not be afraid of failure.  These are those moments and this is the picture that has become your life.

I think sometimes we just don't get it though, we just don't see the meaning in these moments or we think they are too mundane or we read entirely too much into them.  We don't just sit back and appreciate them for what they are or for what they mean to us.  I'm going through a complete roller coaster of moments lately and for good reason.  Some of you out there that read this stupid little thing probably know, and some of you don't and that's fine too because it doesn't matter either way, I'm not even going to talk about it. 

Not too long ago I had a totally zen moment... I had this moment that was just so pure of anything that I found myself in tears (I know surprise surprise Brandon's crying again.) the moment was just so beautiful that I just couldn't help myself.  And to steal a line from a movie that I so dearly love in that moment all I could feel was infinite.  And the crazy thing about me saying that is I remember watching that movie (Perks of Being a Wallflower) and when the character said that line I just got goosebumps and thought to myself man i want to feel that.  And then a couple of Saturdays ago I was down at the Arts Festival with my MOM, AUNT, and SISTER and I had to leave to go somewhere, I'm really not sure right now, but I was leaving and I put in my headphones and was just walking downtown on one of the most beautiful Saturdays of this entire year.  And there are people everywhere, and I'm listening to the Django Unchained Soundtrack, and I'm walking by the Devon Tower, and this song Freedom comes on and as the cool breeze his me and the music is blaring in my ears and I'm looking at all these people I realize that I am having a moment that I'm never going to have again, that nobody in the history of the world will get to have again and I just thought about how beautiful life is, even the shitty parts, and I just had to cry tears of joy.

 Now I know that if you're reading this thing you just might think I'm plum crazy. But the truth is I'm just writing this to let people know that they should be taking this stuff seriously, they should take that moment with your mother, or your spouse, or your friends, or your kids, or just that moment spent with yourself doing the thing you love the most seriously.  Because that moment is making you the person that you are this very day, this very second, and that moment is beautiful, and you might never get another one like it.