There are many thing that people may or may not know about me but one very important thing that I just feel like saying right now and damn it I have know shame in it whatsoever... Well I mean it is pretty shameful so maybe not whatsoever but I'm going to put on a brave face and just say I shame. But deep down inside you must all know that I have slipped into a shame spiral and the only way for me to come out on the other side is to just proclaim this and let the chips fall, let the chips fall where they may.....
I know the suspense has to be killing you all and hopefully I have drug this on just long enough to where you are getting intrigued but know too long to where you're on the beginning side of getting pissed off. (And now the big reveal) I cry a lot. Oh man if only my father could read that last sentence, I know he would be so proud of me. I mean even today, I've already cried twice. (Once watching the end of a Knight's Tale, RIP Heath. And the other watching an episode of Friday Night Lights on Netflix) that's just your average everyday run on the mill Monday. God only knows how many times I'll let it go tomorrow.
I mean it's just ridiculous at this point. And for the longest time I've been a shame cryer. One of those people that is crying but trying his best to make sure nobody knows that he's crying. You know ducking away when something sad is on and maybe trying to wipe the tears away with a shirt sleeve. Or really holding it in and letting your nose run a little so nobody really hears you sniffle. that's me my friend, but not anymore. I think I'm gonna turn myself into a make everyone feel awkward cryer now. like I'm going to purposely make eye contact with people and stare them down while the tears run down my face just to see how they react. I think it's going to be magical.
So yeah I guess now the secret is out of the bag. And it's so over the top and out of control with me. Of course movies do it for me every time. From Forrest Gump to Finding Neverland to Dark Knight to Closer. I can't help it when somebody delivers a beautiful line, or the movie hits me in such a way that I feel like I am a part of the story, or the writing and story and cinematography and direction is so beautiful I think to myself that what I've just seen is literally a masterpiece.
then you have the other things, like some kind words in a card from a friend. Or the ending of a road trip with friends and the feeling of never being in that place again. Or once driving home from a friends on the turnpike and looking around and seeing all the leaves on the trees had turned such bright and beautiful colors and for a moment you feel like you're in a damn painting or something. I mean the sad thing is these are just a few reason why I cry so damn much. Know that I've written this down I know surely after I post it I will feel that I have made a mistake, but you know what I don't care, my name is Brandon Ponder and I cry a lot.
Quick story before I go. So in college me and Cory went and saw Freedom Writers for a class. The movie was pretty good and there were a few sad parts in it. Now for those of you that have heard this story you probably believe that it was Cory that was the one that broke down in tears over the movie. You probably believe this because, well I told you that is what happened, and I'm sure that before you all read this entry you thought I was just this big tough guy with a heart of stone. Well let me just set the record straight and tell you all it was me. Feels so good to get that off my chest. Anyway I hope you all have enjoyed this education and here are just a few trailers that have caused me to shed some tears recently.
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