Moments

There are moments in life that can be bigger than the sky. You may not know these moments when they are happening, but eventually you will look back and realize that you just had a defining moment. It seems to me lately that these moments have been few and far between. And it has just come to me that this is the case. I feel like right now I'm in a pool of stag net water. I don't know why but I know that this is not the person I was always destine to be. this can't be the person that I was always destine to be, because really quiet honestly I fucking hate this person. I had this vision of my life and when I think back to when I was like ten years old, this is definitely not even close to the vision that I had in mind. Now granted there really is no way humanly possible that I could have been a Jedi Knight. But come on, when the hell am I going to have another big moment. It's like I'm stuck in some sort of purgatory. God I am beginning to loathe my twenties. Where is my moment? Where is the thing that makes my story great? Every great story has an even greater moment. The moment that everyone talks about, the one that they always connect to. The truly great movies have this moment that I'm talking about. When a movie is earth shattering it seems like it is filled with them. Then there are some movies that the moment is basically the soundtrack within the movie. I am a firm believer that this moment is incredibly important, and whenever I am in a movie I search this moment out among other things, and I guess this search as bled into my life as well and I regret to say that I have no great moments. Even the moments in my life that I might feel are great to the outside viewer they are mediocre at best. I need to figure out what am I doing wrong. I need to start to live, before I look up one day and it's all over. I guess that's what I have been trying to say this whole time. It is important to live, not to sit idly on the sideline watching as other people make important memories, because you will regret it. Don't be afraid to get in there and get your hands dirty, make enemies, piss people off, fuck up all the time if you have to. At least when it's all over you will realize that it was worth it. You gotta live for the moments in life. Don't be a secondary character in your own life because sooner or later you'll wake up one day and want to drive a pick axe through your own skull. Live for the moments.