My Religion

Well, well, well, what do we have here?  If you are reading this I really can't even believe that you are still tuning in to read about the adventures or really the mis-adventures would probably be a more appropriate word for it.  But here you are so I guess color me flattered.  I will do my best not to completely bore you all and to not go on one of my completely out there tangents that I have been known to go on a time or two.

I guess that it's fitting that I am writing this post today as it is Sunday and I feel as if just not too long ago I just had a sort of religious experience.  And before I really get into all of this let me just start out by saying to all of you back home in the midwest reading this I do believe in god and I do have my own personal relationship with him that is totally my own thing.

Now that I've gotten that little precursor out of the way I can really get into the meat and potatoes of this whole thing.  It's funny but on a the day that I went to the movie and saw what for me was just such a moving movie, The Butler, I will not be using this entry to talk about it.  No I will save that for another day.  Today I am going to talk about something different.  Something that a great friend of mine has said a few times since I've been out here on my quest and the longer I'm out here and the longer that I have to think about it the more that I realize just how true it is.  How true it is that I believe and subscribe to the religion of Movies.

And before any of you say it I know, you have heard this all before.  It seems like every so often I come up with another way to get on this blog and talk about how much I love movies or what writing means to me.  What can I say, you are pretty much just going to have to deal with it.  Because every so often I'm going to get on here and talk about how much it means to me.  I'll spend the rest of my life trying to put into the perfect words what movies and writing mean to me.

So on this Sunday sitting in the movie theaters getting ready to watch The Butler, while the trailers are running for other movies I just felt this relief move through my entire body and I began to tear up.  Which is just what I do.(I know I'm a big giant vagina because I cry a lot.)  And as those tears rolled down my face as I was watching the Catching Fire trailer it all became clear to me and all I could think at this exact moment is that Cooper is totally and completely right.

When I left for LA my mom made sure to get me a new study bible to take with me, fearing that my soul is becoming more and more lost I'm sure.  And I have read this bible a few days each week and I do feel as though it has been the best thing for me.  And I do feel a closeness to that I haven't felt in quite some time I must say. 

And what I'm going to say I don't mean to offend anybody and by no means am I worshiping false idols or anything like that but that experience that so many people go to church a feel, I get that from being inside a movie theater.  It's the place I go to pray, or the place I go to let the weight of the week go.  And I really do believe in a lot of ways that is why I tend to get a tad bit emotional when I'm in a movie theater.  

And I know right about now if you are reading any of this you probably think this guy is completely crazy or how completely immature of him, but really and truly I just don't care.  Because that is exactly how I feel.  And there are very few things in this world that have ever made me feel like that so the things that do I have to hold them close to my heart.  And I say that being in a movie theater is this sort of religious experience for me because when I'm in there watching a movie or waiting to watch I movie I have this feeling deep within myself that there are still some dreams out there for me waiting to come true.  And I guess by now you out there already know this, I am a very big dreamer.  

When I go into a movie theater it doesn't matter what has happened or is happening in my life.  I get to get lost in a completely different world for a couple of hours.  And I get to watch somebody else's story and how they view the world and I get the chance to imagine that someday there will be a time when people will get to go into a dark room and watch my vision of the world.  

So that's it, that's what I wanted all of you to know, what I felt today that I felt I just couldn't not say.  And on a night like tonight, a thousand miles away from home I'll sleep easy knowing that I believe that there is still some magic left out there in the world.