One Book

What in the world is this feeling that I am feeling right now. I woke up this morning and for what felt like no reason at all I felt very very sad. And sure this week has been a complete roller coaster for me, full of realization of just exactly who some people are in my life. There has also been quiet a bit of disappointment and a since of overwhelming weight that feels as if it is on top of me. There are those of you out there that probably had no idea about any of this and that my friend is very good, because it is not in me to burden anybody else with what I am feeling at any particular time. I feel the way that I do and really it is my problem, I never want to become other people's problem. But anyway, that's not what this is about, not at all actually. That feeling that I had when I woke up had nothing to do with me at all and more to do with a book that I just recently read.

I needed to read a book. Early last week I felt myself slipping into the abyss and I tried to go out and get a book that might very well be able to pull me out of that void. Now let me just say that when I first got into the book it had a bit of the opposite effect on me. As I read I felt even more isolated and I started to realize just how far into the rabbit hole I had gone. Because the character that I felt the closet to in the book was the failed comedian who is madly in love with the main character only to realize that she never really loved him anyway. He is nothing more than a substitute person. And unfortunately I felt very much like that, well maybe it's not unfortunate, I mean I guess someone has to feel like that.

Anyway, this book that I was reading is called, ONE DAY, and wow, what a great book. I mean something really great that I think everybody should read. You might be wondering why in fact I decided to read this book, and the reason for that is much like most things in my life, there is a movie based on the book coming out in one month and I had this urge to see what it was all about, because quiet frankly the story just seemed to fascinating for me not to. And the reason that I felt so bad this morning was at the fact that I'm not going to be reading about these characters anymore, and after reading about all the trials that these characters went through it almost feels as if these characters are a part of me.

I don't know I think that it's important to know things like this, that it's important to realize that at this point in my life 26, that one book, one movie, one person can change my life. Or at least change my perspective on things. Anyway, this probably feels a bit like rambling so if you don't read any of this, I completely understand.