It's me and I'm back with another post, and all in the same week. I must say that I am kind of proud of myself. So you should all be proud of me too, after all you all do need this. I mean what else would you do if you couldn't read whatever stupid ass thing that I had to say. Have you ever had a day that when it's all said and done it could have been a really good day, but there was always something that was just lingering over the whole day. Because that is exactly how my day was. It's a strange feeling this day has been and to be honest I really don't know how to shake it. I mean today I got to see greatness. I was able to go watch Shutter Island. I mean the way that Mr. Martin Scoresse and Leonardo Dicaprio lay out this movie is something on the other side of amazing. I'm really not sure what's on the other side of it but if I had to guess it would be this movie. It's the type of movie that just shows what mastery of a craft looks like.
And even though I after watching this movie I just felt overwhelmed with love for movies there was just this thing that seemed to be lingering over my head. I don't really know exactly what this feeling is but the closest thing that I can liken it to is when I was coming to the realization that I was no longer going to be playing baseball. Because the thing is that there is this part of me that is really important and it has been apart of me for quite some time, but the thing is I have this overwhelming feeling that it to is coming to an end. And I guess there really is nothing like the ending of something. But really I feel like right now at this very moment I am outside of myself and I am watching the train wreck that is about to happen. And this train wreck that I am referring to is my life. I don't know how it all came to this. It's like one day things are all on the up and up and the next thing you know it's all snowballing downhill. Where did it all go, who knows really. I hope that this dark cloud that was lingering over this day is lifted because to be honest I really don't want to see the end of this particular part of my life, but I guess if it has to be done it's always better that it is sooner rather than later. When I look back on this day years from now I hope that the thing that I remember is the I saw the glorious Shutter Island, the movie that helped Leo win his first oscar, not that this was the day that I lost another part of me.
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