Tell them they're Great

I have recently been doing some thinking, and as dangerous as that is I decided to do it anyway. And while I was thinking about the assortment of things that happen to go through my mind at any given time I came to this one thought that I really couldn't get out of my head. Before I say any of this I want to first start off by saying, I haven't had the best of luck recently. As a matter of fact my luck as been down right awful. But what is luck really besides a frame of reference. I am unlucky today so that someone else might know that they are lucky. But really when it's all happening to you there really is this feeling of people being lucky as opposed to yourself being unlucky. Which in fact is yet another reason why I love baseball. You can't be lucky and get away with it. The season is 162 games that will test your mental and physical toughness. And over that period of time, you can't just be lucky. It's not like taking a multiple choice test, or giving a presentation that you really haven't prepared for. In baseball you can't just be lucky, you have to be good. Sure you'll get your dying quails to fall in for hits every once in while, and you'll leave a pitch belt high that someone will swing through on occasion. But when it's all said and do, you can either pound the zone and get outs or you can't. You can either hit a curve
ball or you can't. There is no cheating the baseball gods, believe me. Anyway I'm totally off base with what I wanted to talk about, because of baseball. It just always seems to suck me right in. What I wanted to say to those of you listening out there is this. Tell someone they're great, hell tell a bunch of people. Tell your friends and family, tell complete strangers. Because so often in life that's all somebody needs to hear. They just need to know that there is someone out there that believes that they are great. And the crazy thing is they just might end up being just that. We all have it within us just waiting to burst out, and I think those words coming from somebody, even a perfect stranger can make all the difference. I know that is may sound foolish, but I want to invest in people. It's a fool proof plan for me. I may not make a ton of money of this investment, but I think I can make a ton of change. So hopefully if you've made it all the way through this you're not too mad for me wasting your time and maybe you've even gotten something from this, I hope so. And I hope that sometime in the near future you have the balls and the compassion to tell somebody they're great.

Dark Matter

I think deep down I always knew it would come to this. When you're a dreamer eventually you have to wake up right? Maybe not, maybe I'll stay in this trance, maybe I'll stay on or in this cloudless heaven. Maybe I'll be fine. You know maybe I'll just keep a little part of my brain empty for these dreams. Maybe I'll live in the now and do all the things that you have to do to be a productive person that somebody else can actually see something in. But somewhere right in the back of my head I'll keep my dreams alive. I don't want my fire to go out, I don't want that at all. But I can feel the light dimming, everyday I feel it dimming. And I'm fighting tooth and nail to stay a float. I'm in an ocean in my mind and there has been a storm kicking up for quiet sometime now. I don't have I life jacket, I've lost it somehow, I've lost my life jacket and all I can do know is keep kicking, keep treading, just keep my head above water for a little bit longer. I guess I always knew it would come to this, but I guess I just thought it wouldn't happen this soon. I guess I thought that at this point in my life I would be so totally inspired that I would be able to move mountains, but I'm not. I feel like everyday I become less inspired. I feel like I am beginning to look at people and see the worst in them, and I feel like it might be bringing out the worst in me. I feel dark, I feel empty, I feel alone.