Take a Walk

  So this weekend was a big weekend for me. I went on a little bit of an adventure and I went and visited my sister. The thing about this little trip is that it was something that I absolutely needed... You know when you've just been kind of hitting your head against a brick wall, and you just need a breath of fresh air to get some perspective back.  Well that's what this weekend has given to me.  And seriously thank god for sisters like mine.  

  Anybody that knows me or that has talked to me in the last five years knows that Chicago is one of my absolute favorite cities, and on this special occasion I got to see the town in a whole other light.  And believe me there is nothing quite like sitting on the balcony of a high rise drinking a beer and just watching and observing the city.  Watching the cars drive by and watching all the people walking this way and that. Each of them living their own separate lives, each of them with their own unique story to tell. They are all the heroes of their own stories.  

  I got to walk around a major city in the rain and let me just tell you all for the record there is just nothing like it. And yes I know that I have this infatuation with romanticism and I fancy myself as one of the last great romantics, but god was it great. I mean the rain is coming down, but it doesn't even matter, the city doesn't just shut down, people are still on the go doing whatever it is that they have planned, and I just get to take it all in.  The people scurrying about, the horns of the cab drivers blaring out as they speed down the street, bums packing up their stuff trying to find a dry spot away from the rain. I promise you there is nothing quite like it.

  I find myself here at 230 in the morning writing this hoping that the feelings and the inspiration that I have right now never ends. I almost don't want to wake up tomorrow because I know I'm going to have to go to the airport and come home, and I'm really just not ready for all that. I want to walk around this city some more, I want to go and see more art, I want to be one face in a sea of millions of people but feel as if I totally stand out.

  So tonight I'm asking each and everyone of you that reads this, the next time you get the chance, TAKE A WALK. I know that my core audience is in Oklahoma and that's okay. Go downtown and just walk around the buildings. Look around at all that is going on and all the beauty that is around you. And while you're walking take a little time for yourself and think about anything and everything. And after you've spent enough time contemplating the mysteries of the universe remember this..... Remember just how lucky you are to be alive and living that very day, remember that that day is the greatest day of your life, and no matter what is happening or what will happen it will be okay. Because we are all infinite, and our lives no matter how big or small transcend time and space.

I Should have Left You!

It feels very weird being back on here writing to all of you.  You know how you are, the very few that ever really followed this thing. The very few that I feel like I kind of let down. I want to say sorry, I shouldn't have just left you. Not like I did.  I won't lie to you it really has been a rough year for me, with this overwhelming crisis of who I am. Which I'm pretty sure most people spend there whole lives trying to figure that one out.  I know I will, because even as I'm evolving into the person that i am now I know for a fact that it will change.

It took a long time and with some peoples help I have finally jumped back onto the path that I feel I need to be on physically, emotionally, and spiritually. It feels pretty good. I was at a friends house this week watching football, and he asked why I stop doing my blog. It really wasn't the biggest of deals, but when I left that night and all the next day I thought about it. To be honest I had no idea that he even read it. And it got me to thinking about a lot of things.

We all of us as people are so much more than we think ourselves to be. There are times this past year when I have felt really small, for lots of reasons and no reason at all. But hearing my friend as me why I stopped writing my blog made me feel so much more alive and special than I have felt really in the past year. I know it sounds crazy, but it did, I mean I told him that I didn't know why I had stopped writing but I knew, I knew exactly why I had stopped.

I had given up. I had given up on the possibility that I could make my dreams come true, and I had given up on the person that I thought I could be. It's sad really but I know that sometimes in life we give up on ourselves. Sometimes it's because things get hard, or maybe things seem impossible, or maybe you've fallen into a funk and you just stop believing that good things can happen to you.  I'm here to tell you today that it's just not true. I believe that good things are happening to us everyday, we just don't take the time to stop and realize it.

I believe that above all things that I've done thus far in life the thing that I have done the best are my friends. And there is something to be said for that. The people that you choose to have around you in your life can lift you up to places you never thought possible. I won't go into detail of all the people that have been there helping me, but you all know who you are and if any of you are reading this, thank you and I love you. I won't lose sight again.

Now that all of that is done I've going to be really quick about this. If you read this far I'm going to ask you all to do something for me. You may not know this right now, but by doing something for me, you are actually going to be doing something for yourself.  Go out as soon as you can and see The Perks of Being a Wallflower. 

If you have ever read any of my stuff before you know that when I start talking about a movie I can tend to go on and on and on, so with that said, I'm not going to do that tonight. I'm simple going to say that this movie is what it's all about. It takes you through so many different emotions and there is just so much heart in there. I loved every second of it, and I'm not ashamed to say that I teared up a few times in it. It's that good folks, it was one of the best times I've had at the movies this year, and lets face it, that's saying something because I go to a lot of movies. So thank you for reading this, and don't worry there will be more to come, I promise.

Here is the trailer for those of you that don't know what this movie is about.